Treated last are treated first.

      I was standing in a line. It was evening or early morning, I was too despondent to notice. In my dream I was slouched, broken, all my rejections were on my sleeve. It felt like everyone could see it. There was an endless line of proud soldiers. These guys had huge armor, helmets, swords and shields that were perfect and fierce. They stood straight, as in rank. In this line was me also. I was shorter, had no armor, I was slouched and all my problems and pain appeared to be physical, I had no good helmet, or sword, or armor. 

Jesus was walking down the line, he was picking out people. He had two other huge soldiers with him walking silently. Jesus looked at each one, then kept walking. I was becoming more and more nervous the closer he was walking my way down the line. I was worried because I wasn't in uniform, I couldn't stand as tall as these other soldiers, my pain was manifested on my face and my body. I felt worn-out broken and rejected.

When Jesus finally got to the next guy beside me he looked at him and then stopped at me. I turned my gaze downwards and shut my eyes. I was too ashamed to look at him. (This part I remember the clearest out of the whole dream)

Jesus said: "Him, he's the one I want."

The two soldiers escorting him: "Lord are you sure."

Jesus: "Yes."

Soldiers: "But Lord look at these --"

Jesus interrupted "HIM" and pierced them with his eyes. 

Soldiers: "Yes your Majesty."

The other soldiers all disappeared, I was the only one. Jesus walked away with the two soldiers, and I felt accepted. I woke up after that dream.

Trials, tribulations, such pain has been happening. Severe depression, loss of relationships and broken friendships look like a shattered windshield, glass covering the ground. A broken heart that cannot feel and is numb to everything including God. At times like these we have to hold on to the truth that God is only good, he is not finished yet, this is to strengthen your faith trust and hope in him. And in a little while it will all be over and your faith will not be for nothing. Reach out to others and start saying hi, smile and don't be afraid to talk.