I can't always hear or feel God & Why.

                 Hey whats happenin everyone. I have had 2 recent blogs about my amazing experiences with God, and just good things happening in my life. God has been helping me, teaching me and comforting me in my life, I love it. I am so thankful. I have been getting closer to him and I am learning things, being encouraged, feeling his presence. 

                  I am just a beginner, no expert by any means, and even when I gain more knowledge, the glory be to the Lord. Lately he has been wanting me to trust him, put my hope in his son Jesus. Its so hard for me to get it, so I asked him for his help to put all my trust and hope into him, not just 50% or 75%. He wants all of us, 100%. He wants to give us himself and Love us. Its pretty cool :]  But about 2 weeks ago, he disappeared. I couldnt feel him, couldnt see him or anything. No answer or hints that he was even there. Completely gone it felt like. I was at first worried, upset, and then just didnt care. But I knew that God is still there, even when we can't feel him. And I thanked him for being there. He still didnt answer. Days went by, and I still was worried. Then one day I knew in my heart that he wanted me to trust him, and not just his presence. Feelings lead us astray, the heart is deceitful. I knew he was teaching me to trust and hope in him and it made my expectation bigger when I knew he would reveal himself to me. 


                He finally did, and in an instant I knew that thats what he was doing, was making my trust stronger and my hope bigger in him. He is always there, 100% if you are humble, sincere, in your spirit and in truth going after Jesus. So if you don't feel his presence from time to time, dont worry. He is there, and It is all for a good reason. Don't give up or get down, keep going and be thankful that he with you. Because he really is.

               Hopefully this helped someone out there, my trust is bigger in God himself, not his presence, my feelings or emotions. Thank you God.